CASSANDRA
Episode 21
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The next day my little sister paid me an unexpected visit. It really was the first time she was paying me a visit as a married woman. Of course I was very happy she made out time for me even though it wasn’t a planned visit..
‘’you are really doing fine bro’’ she said happily as she looked round the shop. I nodded in agreement, breathing deeply.
‘’anyway I don’t have much time to spend with you but I’m very curious to know how much you have gone with Cassandra and equally know how much you have been able to check out the girl, concerning things I told you at home about her’’ she queried seriously while I shrugged.
‘’my dear sister I have been seriously occupied with business lately. I haven’t yet made any new progress with Cassandra. I’m just in the middle of a big crises right now’’ I confessed, drawing out a sharp look from her.
‘’what do you mean by being in the middle of a crises?’’ she asked with great worry. I forced out a smile and stood up.
‘’never mind dear. The words just escaped my lips. So what do I offer you?’’’ I asked, expertly changing the topic but my sister wasn’t a little kid. She quietly stood up, drew closer and touched my shoulder.
‘’I know you still see me as a little child even though I’m married. You have to wipe out that mentality from you. I’m an adult for Christ sake. Please tell me what the problem is all about. Is it about Cassandra?. Did she do anything?’’ she demanded. I shook my head and breathed deeply.
‘’no it isn’t about Cassandra but about another lady I mistakenly got pregnant’’ I confessed, drawing out the wildest gasp from her.
‘’my gawd what did you do!!!’’ she exclaimed.
‘’it was just a big mistake’’ I muttered, taking my time to tell her my story with Nora. I told her everything, hiding nothing. When I was done , she breathed deeply and shook her head.
‘’no matter what, you cant just let the girl bear the burden of childbirth alone. We all have conscience. No you cant leave her on her own. You got to support her, no matter how little’’ she said seriously.
‘’but you heard when I said she now wants nothing to do with me. How do I support her when she wants nothing to do with me anymore’’ I fired back.
‘’I understand but I have to talk to her. How do I locate her?’’ she demanded as if she was my mother. I hesitantly obliged, giving her the direction to Nora’s shop. But as soon as she left, i regretted ever telling her about Nora.
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Two hours later, Chinedu rushed into my shop to have a word with me. He was breathing heavily like someone being chased by an evil spirit. I couldn’t help but wonder what was making him so agitated.
‘’I had a very terrible dream last night. I saw Cassandra push into a pool of blood and as you were drowning you begged me to save you. I jumped into the pool to help but ended up drowning with you” he poured out breathlessly while i stared at him silently. I never believed in dreams. I never paid any serious attention to it but with the way my friend was sweating there wasn’t any doubt the dream he just narrated to me was affecting him greatly.
”you know brother. I have been thinking and I just came to the conclusion that you shouldn’t abandon Nora to have your child on her own. You guys should find a way to come to a settlement’’ he said seriously.
‘’my sister said the same thing. She just left minutes ago to see Nora’’ I answered, surprising him with the revelation.
‘’that’s good but another problem is Cassandra. Will you tell her about it or do you plan hidding everything from her?’’ he asked, bringing up the question I had desperately tried to hide from my head. I stared at him speechlessly, unable to say a word.
‘’thirdly, do you think someone like Cassandra will stay with you if she learns about it?’’ he pushed on, totally destroying me with his questions.
‘I cant tell Cassandra about it and that’s why I desperately want Nora to disappear from my life’’ I opened up, shocking my friend who gasped with disbelieve but before he could say another word, my sister walked in looking very troubled and dejected. We all faced her curiously.
‘’life cant be so unfair’’ she muttered as she stared at me with eyes laden with tears.
Episode 22
‘’come on what’s up with you?. What’s up with the face?’’ I asked curiously while Chinedu sat up and offered her his chair. My sister stared at me for some seconds before shaking her head softly.
‘’it’s really a pity that you are about losing a noble woman for a worthless girl. I can’t help but weep for you. You are about losing a lady with a good heart. Nora talked me and yes she won me over to her side. I really don’t know if Cassandra is worth the sacrifice you are making. Don’t tell me you feel nothing for Nora. Don’t tell me the thing you had with her was just sex and nothing else?. Don’t tell me you are putting class and power over your happiness?’’ she poured out emotionally, making me very uncomfortable with her question. I scratched my head, saying nothing.
‘’Nora is very serious about moving on with her life. And She’s moving on with the greatest gift of it all. Your baby. Your first blood.” she added, stopping for a few seconds to study my reaction.
” I tried convincing her to be on my side. To be patient and stick with me but no she isn’t ready to bring herself too low fighting for a man who doesn’t love her. Take a deep breathe big brother and think about your future and happiness. A bird in hand is worth more than a thousand flying within your reach. I’m leaving but you should know that Nora is a good lady. She is the woman you are supposed to fight for and not Cassandra. Im leaving bro’’ she poured out, grabbed her bag and walked away.
‘’I hope you knew what you did when you told your sister the truth about Nora?. This isn’t an open secret anymore. Your family may soon get involved in the whole drama’’ Chinedu said immediately after my sister left.
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The rest of the day really was awfully bad for me. I couldn’t concentrate on anything nor think properly. Chinedu equally wasn’t helpful, instead added to the tension I was already feeling by coming up with a hundred and one theories of what could happen if I abandon Nora and stick with Cassandra, without even knowing how his words were hurting me.
Later in the night I called Cassandra, to hear her voice and ease out the tension in me. Her voice was one of the things that always had a way of calming my nerves.
‘’hi dear what’s up?’ she greeted happily.
‘’fine my love . i’m so stressed up’’ I confessed.
‘’hmmm , oh no. hope you have eaten for the night?’’ she asked.
‘’yes but what I want is to be with you right now. I’m so lonely. Maybe I should come over to your hostel tomorrow’’ I breathed, expecting her to give a positive answer but she killed my spirit by declining.
‘’no dear, there isn’t any need coming. I can come over on Friday to be with you. Isn’t it better?’’ she asked quickly.
‘’it’s cool but I equally want to know where you live . I just want to know every little detail about you’’ I pushed on expecting her to understand. She instead kept quiet for some seconds before answering.
‘’there isn’t any need for you visiting my school. I don’t understand what you meant by knowing every little detail about me. Anyway I will show up on Friday. So do prepare for me’’ she replied slowly , leaving me with no choice than to swallow my words and accept her choice.
‘’fine, I will wait for you on Friday’’ I breathed and hung up..
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Friday soon arrived with a very calm weather. The atmosphere was just cool all through the day with little sunshine and no rain. A very good business day.
I headed home by 4pm in order to be at home when my Cassandra shows up. I whistled happily as I drove through the light traffic to my home. Of course i was happy and excited.
On reaching the gate to my compound , I was surprised to see a big truck loaded with furniture and household appliances. I couldn’t help but wonder who was parking out of the compound as alighted from my car curiously.
On getting close to my flat, I saw Nora’s sister carrying a big leather bag and heading towards the truck. I quickly blocked her.
‘’hey what’s going on?’’ I asked breathlessly.
‘’we are parking out. We are moving to new apartment’’ she answered rudely and walked past me. Her answer kind of left a hole in my heart. I instantly felt uneasy and forced myself to Nora’s apartment to see her busy arranging some household stuffs.
‘’Nora ‘’ I breathed, unable to make out what next to say. She quickly turned to face me as soon as she heard my voice.
‘’why are you here?. Cant you see I’m busy?’’ she asked coldly.
‘’yes I see you are busy parking your things. But why’’ I asked softly, drawing close to hold her. She stared at me silently for some seconds as she felt my touch.
‘’I’m leaving. I don’t want my baby to have anything to do with you nor grow up in this environment. It’s better for us, we stay far away from each other. This is goodbye. You will never see me again’’’ she said seriously , leaving me shaking with great feelings.
‘’no please. Let’s straighten things out’’ I stammered without knowing when I said such words. I really was supposed to be happy that she was leaving for good. That she was disappearing from my life but I just don’t know what made me feel so bad. So very bad.
‘’no lets straightnen things out’’. I stammered again, clasping her cheeks with my palms..
Episode 23
‘’let go of me please. I don’t know the game you are trying to play right now. What is wrong with you?’’ Nora breathed, breaking away from me.
‘’let’s talk thinks over. At least give me the location or name of the place you are moving to?’’ I stammered , drawing close to her once again. She quickly drew back , shaking her head.
‘’hey this ends right now. Go back to your apartment and let me be. Cant you see that i’m busy?. Please allow me to concentrate’’ she said with a raised tone which kind of kept me in check. I took no further step towards her.
‘’fine, now turn and leave me in peace’’ she added, backed me and continued with what she was doing before I walked in. I simply stood and silently watched her, clueless on what exactly to say or do next. I really didn’t want her to leave neither did I want her to stay. In fact I really wasn’t in control of my feelings neither did i know what i actually wanted from her.
I simply stayed back till she finally packed out of the apartment an hour later, leaving with a part of me I knew I would never recover.
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My mind was empty and hollow as I nervously waited for Cassandra to show up. I desperately needed her company. I badly needed her presence in order to overcome the pain of seeing Nora leave with sadness in her eyes. I just couldn’t stop thinking of Nora nor stop her image from appearing in my head. I finally had to take few shots of whiskey to calm my nerves.
Yes I just wasn’t myself that fateful Friday evening.
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Cassandra showed up at exactly 8pm looking so hot and sharp in her denim jeans and blue top. She was all smiles as she gave me her usual heart warming hug .
‘’I’m so sorry for coming late. I had lots of things to do in school’’ she explained as she noticed how colored up I was.
‘’what’s wrong?. You don’t look so well?’’ she asked curiously. I forced out a smile .
‘’i’m just so stressed up, my dear.’’ I stammered softly..
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We ended up having a quick dinner before retiring to the bedroom. I really had lots of things to ask her but felt it was wise leaving everything for the next day. All I wanted was just to enjoy her company and make love to her. Having her in my arms was the only way to get Nora out of my head. Moreover I equally had tried, putting up with her for this long without tasting her delicious apple.
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I kept tossing on the bed as I thought of the best approach to use in making love to Cassandra. I really was so h---y and desperately in need of sex. Her tempting shape equally wasn’t helpful as I battled with my mind.
‘’Cassandra my love’’ I breathed as I slowly closed in on her.she quickly sat up and stared at me suspiciously.
‘’what is it?’’ she asked curiously. I sat up and held her hand.
‘’’tell me what do you feel when I touch you?’’ I asked.
‘’I don’t understand’’ she muttered slowly.
‘’’do you feel anything when i touch you?’’ I pushed on.
‘’please let’s sleep, I’m very tired’’ I heard her say. But without another word, I held her face strongly, planting a kiss on her lips. She instantly drew back like a scared virgin.
‘’I want to make love to you. I want to be inside you. I want to feel you’’ I opened up courageously while she gasped with disbelief.
‘’I thought we agreed on leaving anything concerning sex till marriage?. Why are you bringing up such topic now. I’m so tired please. If you disturb me one more time, I will leave this room for you’’ she threatened vehemently, shocking me with her cold attitude. I instantly felt very bad.
With deep pain, i came to the conclusion that she certainly had no sexual attraction or should i say feelings for me. It wasn’t the first, second nor third time we were sleeping together, yet nothing. Not even a hot romance. All the things my sister fed me about her slowly came into my head.
‘’should I sleep or are you still bent on disturbing me?’’ she asked to know her position.
‘’you are not a virgin. Are you?’’ I asked , surprising her with the question.
‘’I have met your family. I sponsor you in everything. I’m ready to do much more for you. You very much know my intentions are genuine. Why then are you bent of starving me of the only thing that can solidify our relationship?. I know for a fact that you are not a virgin. I equally have heard stories about you. Yet I shut my heart to the stories and still stayed with you. Anyway it’s all well. There isn’t any need leaving. I will leave the room for you to enjoy your sleep’’ I breathed and stood up to leave.
I meant every word i said to her. I said everything with a clear head and even though I opened up my feelings bravely. I wasn’t really leaving the room with a brave heart but with a failed spirit. I badly needed the sex and I couldn’t afford spending one more night with her without it. Moreover it wasn’t as if she was a virgin or a religious girl.
‘’you don’t have to leave Dave. Fine lets do it’’ I heard her say as I headed towards the door. I couldn’t believe my ears…
Episode 24
‘’what?’’ I stammered as I faced her , not knowing what to make of her words.
‘’you heard me right. Let’s do it’’ she said once again, pulling off her night wear. I stared at her suspiciously, a bit indecisive and confused. I badly wanted the sex but the way by which she was offering it wasn’t encouraging at all. It was as if she was doing it under duress. There wasn’t any doubt she was offering her body against her will but the sight of Cassandra, naked before me was so much to be ignored. It really was a very rare sight.
I drew close and sat on the bed, reaching forward to grab her shoulders. My heart pounded furiously as I kissed her jaw.
‘’please don’t take this the wrong way. You mean so much to me. You are my life. You are my woman. You are my everything’’ I breathed, taking my lips down to her left b----t. I couldn’t help but groan with wondrous pleasure as I tasted it for the first time.
‘’I’m really tired. Please just make it snappy.’’ I heard her say a bit coldly. I raised up my face to stare at her but her eyes seemed to be far away.. It was just as if her body was with me while her soul was somewhere else.
On a very good day, I would have pulled away from her. I would have stopped and left the room but I badly needed her. I badly needed the sex no matter how it was offered.
I tried to fondle her b-----s but she quickly stopped me.
‘’please just f--k me fast. I want to get done with it and sleep’’ she said as if it was just a business transaction going on between us. There wasn’t any emotion nor feelings in her voice. It was just so cold and dry.
‘’why are you like this?’’ I heard myself ask.
‘’you don’t love me. You are not happy. Should I stop?’’ I kind of asked ,like a school boy. She scoffed and stared at me for some seconds.
‘’no don’t stop. Just do it’’ she breathed slowly while I quickly undressed, fetched a condom, pulled it on and slowly climbed on top her via the good old missionary. She closed her eyes as she felt my slow penetration.
I did my thing for about six minutes before emptying my seed. I quickly pulled away from her, breathing heavily. To be frank nothing was really exciting about the sex. It was just a mere physical exercise on my part. There was no romance, no love words, no caresses. Nothing. Seriously the sex we had was even way below what hookers in the street do give out as short time. I just was unsatisfied and unhappy. Nevertheless , I pretended and forced out a smile.
‘’it was wonderful. Thanks’’ I said softly while she said nothing, instead got up and headed to the toilet. She returned a minute later and slowly went to sleep , leaving me to ponder over her attitude all night.
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Early the next morning, I woke up to see Cassandra dressing up. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I really couldn’t make out what was happening.
I quickly got up and stared at her curiously.
‘’Cassandra my love. What’s going on?. Where are you dressing to?’’ I asked curiously. She gave me a cold look before answering.
‘’I’m leaving. I’m going back to my school. It’s over between us. I have already paid for all you did for me. You had your way with me last night and I believe I now owe you nothing. You never loved me. All you wanted was sex and you robbed it on my face last night by reminding me all you did for me, fully knowing the vow I made to God concerning sex. I have paid you back with my body and so it’s over between us. Good bye’’ she poured out, shocking me with her words. I couldn’t believe a d--n thing.
‘’what!’’ I screamed with disbelief.
‘’oh yes, you heard me right’’ she fired back as we stared at each other with red eyes…
Episode 21
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The next day my little sister paid me an unexpected visit. It really was the first time she was paying me a visit as a married woman. Of course I was very happy she made out time for me even though it wasn’t a planned visit..
‘’you are really doing fine bro’’ she said happily as she looked round the shop. I nodded in agreement, breathing deeply.
‘’anyway I don’t have much time to spend with you but I’m very curious to know how much you have gone with Cassandra and equally know how much you have been able to check out the girl, concerning things I told you at home about her’’ she queried seriously while I shrugged.
‘’my dear sister I have been seriously occupied with business lately. I haven’t yet made any new progress with Cassandra. I’m just in the middle of a big crises right now’’ I confessed, drawing out a sharp look from her.
‘’what do you mean by being in the middle of a crises?’’ she asked with great worry. I forced out a smile and stood up.
‘’never mind dear. The words just escaped my lips. So what do I offer you?’’’ I asked, expertly changing the topic but my sister wasn’t a little kid. She quietly stood up, drew closer and touched my shoulder.
‘’I know you still see me as a little child even though I’m married. You have to wipe out that mentality from you. I’m an adult for Christ sake. Please tell me what the problem is all about. Is it about Cassandra?. Did she do anything?’’ she demanded. I shook my head and breathed deeply.
‘’no it isn’t about Cassandra but about another lady I mistakenly got pregnant’’ I confessed, drawing out the wildest gasp from her.
‘’my gawd what did you do!!!’’ she exclaimed.
‘’it was just a big mistake’’ I muttered, taking my time to tell her my story with Nora. I told her everything, hiding nothing. When I was done , she breathed deeply and shook her head.
‘’no matter what, you cant just let the girl bear the burden of childbirth alone. We all have conscience. No you cant leave her on her own. You got to support her, no matter how little’’ she said seriously.
‘’but you heard when I said she now wants nothing to do with me. How do I support her when she wants nothing to do with me anymore’’ I fired back.
‘’I understand but I have to talk to her. How do I locate her?’’ she demanded as if she was my mother. I hesitantly obliged, giving her the direction to Nora’s shop. But as soon as she left, i regretted ever telling her about Nora.
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Two hours later, Chinedu rushed into my shop to have a word with me. He was breathing heavily like someone being chased by an evil spirit. I couldn’t help but wonder what was making him so agitated.
‘’I had a very terrible dream last night. I saw Cassandra push into a pool of blood and as you were drowning you begged me to save you. I jumped into the pool to help but ended up drowning with you” he poured out breathlessly while i stared at him silently. I never believed in dreams. I never paid any serious attention to it but with the way my friend was sweating there wasn’t any doubt the dream he just narrated to me was affecting him greatly.
”you know brother. I have been thinking and I just came to the conclusion that you shouldn’t abandon Nora to have your child on her own. You guys should find a way to come to a settlement’’ he said seriously.
‘’my sister said the same thing. She just left minutes ago to see Nora’’ I answered, surprising him with the revelation.
‘’that’s good but another problem is Cassandra. Will you tell her about it or do you plan hidding everything from her?’’ he asked, bringing up the question I had desperately tried to hide from my head. I stared at him speechlessly, unable to say a word.
‘’thirdly, do you think someone like Cassandra will stay with you if she learns about it?’’ he pushed on, totally destroying me with his questions.
‘I cant tell Cassandra about it and that’s why I desperately want Nora to disappear from my life’’ I opened up, shocking my friend who gasped with disbelieve but before he could say another word, my sister walked in looking very troubled and dejected. We all faced her curiously.
‘’life cant be so unfair’’ she muttered as she stared at me with eyes laden with tears.
Episode 22
‘’come on what’s up with you?. What’s up with the face?’’ I asked curiously while Chinedu sat up and offered her his chair. My sister stared at me for some seconds before shaking her head softly.
‘’it’s really a pity that you are about losing a noble woman for a worthless girl. I can’t help but weep for you. You are about losing a lady with a good heart. Nora talked me and yes she won me over to her side. I really don’t know if Cassandra is worth the sacrifice you are making. Don’t tell me you feel nothing for Nora. Don’t tell me the thing you had with her was just sex and nothing else?. Don’t tell me you are putting class and power over your happiness?’’ she poured out emotionally, making me very uncomfortable with her question. I scratched my head, saying nothing.
‘’Nora is very serious about moving on with her life. And She’s moving on with the greatest gift of it all. Your baby. Your first blood.” she added, stopping for a few seconds to study my reaction.
” I tried convincing her to be on my side. To be patient and stick with me but no she isn’t ready to bring herself too low fighting for a man who doesn’t love her. Take a deep breathe big brother and think about your future and happiness. A bird in hand is worth more than a thousand flying within your reach. I’m leaving but you should know that Nora is a good lady. She is the woman you are supposed to fight for and not Cassandra. Im leaving bro’’ she poured out, grabbed her bag and walked away.
‘’I hope you knew what you did when you told your sister the truth about Nora?. This isn’t an open secret anymore. Your family may soon get involved in the whole drama’’ Chinedu said immediately after my sister left.
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The rest of the day really was awfully bad for me. I couldn’t concentrate on anything nor think properly. Chinedu equally wasn’t helpful, instead added to the tension I was already feeling by coming up with a hundred and one theories of what could happen if I abandon Nora and stick with Cassandra, without even knowing how his words were hurting me.
Later in the night I called Cassandra, to hear her voice and ease out the tension in me. Her voice was one of the things that always had a way of calming my nerves.
‘’hi dear what’s up?’ she greeted happily.
‘’fine my love . i’m so stressed up’’ I confessed.
‘’hmmm , oh no. hope you have eaten for the night?’’ she asked.
‘’yes but what I want is to be with you right now. I’m so lonely. Maybe I should come over to your hostel tomorrow’’ I breathed, expecting her to give a positive answer but she killed my spirit by declining.
‘’no dear, there isn’t any need coming. I can come over on Friday to be with you. Isn’t it better?’’ she asked quickly.
‘’it’s cool but I equally want to know where you live . I just want to know every little detail about you’’ I pushed on expecting her to understand. She instead kept quiet for some seconds before answering.
‘’there isn’t any need for you visiting my school. I don’t understand what you meant by knowing every little detail about me. Anyway I will show up on Friday. So do prepare for me’’ she replied slowly , leaving me with no choice than to swallow my words and accept her choice.
‘’fine, I will wait for you on Friday’’ I breathed and hung up..
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Friday soon arrived with a very calm weather. The atmosphere was just cool all through the day with little sunshine and no rain. A very good business day.
I headed home by 4pm in order to be at home when my Cassandra shows up. I whistled happily as I drove through the light traffic to my home. Of course i was happy and excited.
On reaching the gate to my compound , I was surprised to see a big truck loaded with furniture and household appliances. I couldn’t help but wonder who was parking out of the compound as alighted from my car curiously.
On getting close to my flat, I saw Nora’s sister carrying a big leather bag and heading towards the truck. I quickly blocked her.
‘’hey what’s going on?’’ I asked breathlessly.
‘’we are parking out. We are moving to new apartment’’ she answered rudely and walked past me. Her answer kind of left a hole in my heart. I instantly felt uneasy and forced myself to Nora’s apartment to see her busy arranging some household stuffs.
‘’Nora ‘’ I breathed, unable to make out what next to say. She quickly turned to face me as soon as she heard my voice.
‘’why are you here?. Cant you see I’m busy?’’ she asked coldly.
‘’yes I see you are busy parking your things. But why’’ I asked softly, drawing close to hold her. She stared at me silently for some seconds as she felt my touch.
‘’I’m leaving. I don’t want my baby to have anything to do with you nor grow up in this environment. It’s better for us, we stay far away from each other. This is goodbye. You will never see me again’’’ she said seriously , leaving me shaking with great feelings.
‘’no please. Let’s straighten things out’’ I stammered without knowing when I said such words. I really was supposed to be happy that she was leaving for good. That she was disappearing from my life but I just don’t know what made me feel so bad. So very bad.
‘’no lets straightnen things out’’. I stammered again, clasping her cheeks with my palms..
Episode 23
‘’let go of me please. I don’t know the game you are trying to play right now. What is wrong with you?’’ Nora breathed, breaking away from me.
‘’let’s talk thinks over. At least give me the location or name of the place you are moving to?’’ I stammered , drawing close to her once again. She quickly drew back , shaking her head.
‘’hey this ends right now. Go back to your apartment and let me be. Cant you see that i’m busy?. Please allow me to concentrate’’ she said with a raised tone which kind of kept me in check. I took no further step towards her.
‘’fine, now turn and leave me in peace’’ she added, backed me and continued with what she was doing before I walked in. I simply stood and silently watched her, clueless on what exactly to say or do next. I really didn’t want her to leave neither did I want her to stay. In fact I really wasn’t in control of my feelings neither did i know what i actually wanted from her.
I simply stayed back till she finally packed out of the apartment an hour later, leaving with a part of me I knew I would never recover.
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My mind was empty and hollow as I nervously waited for Cassandra to show up. I desperately needed her company. I badly needed her presence in order to overcome the pain of seeing Nora leave with sadness in her eyes. I just couldn’t stop thinking of Nora nor stop her image from appearing in my head. I finally had to take few shots of whiskey to calm my nerves.
Yes I just wasn’t myself that fateful Friday evening.
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Cassandra showed up at exactly 8pm looking so hot and sharp in her denim jeans and blue top. She was all smiles as she gave me her usual heart warming hug .
‘’I’m so sorry for coming late. I had lots of things to do in school’’ she explained as she noticed how colored up I was.
‘’what’s wrong?. You don’t look so well?’’ she asked curiously. I forced out a smile .
‘’i’m just so stressed up, my dear.’’ I stammered softly..
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We ended up having a quick dinner before retiring to the bedroom. I really had lots of things to ask her but felt it was wise leaving everything for the next day. All I wanted was just to enjoy her company and make love to her. Having her in my arms was the only way to get Nora out of my head. Moreover I equally had tried, putting up with her for this long without tasting her delicious apple.
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I kept tossing on the bed as I thought of the best approach to use in making love to Cassandra. I really was so h---y and desperately in need of sex. Her tempting shape equally wasn’t helpful as I battled with my mind.
‘’Cassandra my love’’ I breathed as I slowly closed in on her.she quickly sat up and stared at me suspiciously.
‘’what is it?’’ she asked curiously. I sat up and held her hand.
‘’’tell me what do you feel when I touch you?’’ I asked.
‘’I don’t understand’’ she muttered slowly.
‘’’do you feel anything when i touch you?’’ I pushed on.
‘’please let’s sleep, I’m very tired’’ I heard her say. But without another word, I held her face strongly, planting a kiss on her lips. She instantly drew back like a scared virgin.
‘’I want to make love to you. I want to be inside you. I want to feel you’’ I opened up courageously while she gasped with disbelief.
‘’I thought we agreed on leaving anything concerning sex till marriage?. Why are you bringing up such topic now. I’m so tired please. If you disturb me one more time, I will leave this room for you’’ she threatened vehemently, shocking me with her cold attitude. I instantly felt very bad.
With deep pain, i came to the conclusion that she certainly had no sexual attraction or should i say feelings for me. It wasn’t the first, second nor third time we were sleeping together, yet nothing. Not even a hot romance. All the things my sister fed me about her slowly came into my head.
‘’should I sleep or are you still bent on disturbing me?’’ she asked to know her position.
‘’you are not a virgin. Are you?’’ I asked , surprising her with the question.
‘’I have met your family. I sponsor you in everything. I’m ready to do much more for you. You very much know my intentions are genuine. Why then are you bent of starving me of the only thing that can solidify our relationship?. I know for a fact that you are not a virgin. I equally have heard stories about you. Yet I shut my heart to the stories and still stayed with you. Anyway it’s all well. There isn’t any need leaving. I will leave the room for you to enjoy your sleep’’ I breathed and stood up to leave.
I meant every word i said to her. I said everything with a clear head and even though I opened up my feelings bravely. I wasn’t really leaving the room with a brave heart but with a failed spirit. I badly needed the sex and I couldn’t afford spending one more night with her without it. Moreover it wasn’t as if she was a virgin or a religious girl.
‘’you don’t have to leave Dave. Fine lets do it’’ I heard her say as I headed towards the door. I couldn’t believe my ears…
Episode 24
‘’what?’’ I stammered as I faced her , not knowing what to make of her words.
‘’you heard me right. Let’s do it’’ she said once again, pulling off her night wear. I stared at her suspiciously, a bit indecisive and confused. I badly wanted the sex but the way by which she was offering it wasn’t encouraging at all. It was as if she was doing it under duress. There wasn’t any doubt she was offering her body against her will but the sight of Cassandra, naked before me was so much to be ignored. It really was a very rare sight.
I drew close and sat on the bed, reaching forward to grab her shoulders. My heart pounded furiously as I kissed her jaw.
‘’please don’t take this the wrong way. You mean so much to me. You are my life. You are my woman. You are my everything’’ I breathed, taking my lips down to her left b----t. I couldn’t help but groan with wondrous pleasure as I tasted it for the first time.
‘’I’m really tired. Please just make it snappy.’’ I heard her say a bit coldly. I raised up my face to stare at her but her eyes seemed to be far away.. It was just as if her body was with me while her soul was somewhere else.
On a very good day, I would have pulled away from her. I would have stopped and left the room but I badly needed her. I badly needed the sex no matter how it was offered.
I tried to fondle her b-----s but she quickly stopped me.
‘’please just f--k me fast. I want to get done with it and sleep’’ she said as if it was just a business transaction going on between us. There wasn’t any emotion nor feelings in her voice. It was just so cold and dry.
‘’why are you like this?’’ I heard myself ask.
‘’you don’t love me. You are not happy. Should I stop?’’ I kind of asked ,like a school boy. She scoffed and stared at me for some seconds.
‘’no don’t stop. Just do it’’ she breathed slowly while I quickly undressed, fetched a condom, pulled it on and slowly climbed on top her via the good old missionary. She closed her eyes as she felt my slow penetration.
I did my thing for about six minutes before emptying my seed. I quickly pulled away from her, breathing heavily. To be frank nothing was really exciting about the sex. It was just a mere physical exercise on my part. There was no romance, no love words, no caresses. Nothing. Seriously the sex we had was even way below what hookers in the street do give out as short time. I just was unsatisfied and unhappy. Nevertheless , I pretended and forced out a smile.
‘’it was wonderful. Thanks’’ I said softly while she said nothing, instead got up and headed to the toilet. She returned a minute later and slowly went to sleep , leaving me to ponder over her attitude all night.
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Early the next morning, I woke up to see Cassandra dressing up. I couldn’t believe my eyes. I really couldn’t make out what was happening.
I quickly got up and stared at her curiously.
‘’Cassandra my love. What’s going on?. Where are you dressing to?’’ I asked curiously. She gave me a cold look before answering.
‘’I’m leaving. I’m going back to my school. It’s over between us. I have already paid for all you did for me. You had your way with me last night and I believe I now owe you nothing. You never loved me. All you wanted was sex and you robbed it on my face last night by reminding me all you did for me, fully knowing the vow I made to God concerning sex. I have paid you back with my body and so it’s over between us. Good bye’’ she poured out, shocking me with her words. I couldn’t believe a d--n thing.
‘’what!’’ I screamed with disbelief.
‘’oh yes, you heard me right’’ she fired back as we stared at each other with red eyes…
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